Second time around.

So in a way this all feels a little funny to me.  When I went to weigh in last week the receptionist looked at me and saw my lifetime card and said “oh, your lifetime you don’t need to pay.”  Well, if she would have looked at the WI she would have noticed I am over my goal weight and do need to pay.  I am already set up on the monthly pass so I don’t actually pay at the meeting though.  I guess it’s wierd because most people  see me and assume I don’t need to lose weight.  I hide it very well.

 The other thing is, I seem to be trapped in my past experiences not living in the present.  If that makes any sense.  I’m not even sure how to explain it.  Okay, here’s an example.  Another dear blogger Lady S was talking about her shin splints.  The only advice I could give her was to ice them due to that’s what my doctor had told me to do last time I was running. Last time.  I mean it worked but again it’s the past.  I haven’t been doing much running this time around, too cold, too dark, hate the gym. I have all kinds of excuses.  It’s just that I wish I could have told her something from my present experiences.  I guess that’s what it’s all about.  I just don’t seem to have any good, present experiences.

I haven’t felt like this is exciting, or helpful, or anything. I just feel blah, like I’m going through the motions and don’t really care what the outcome is.

~ by hueyea on November 7, 2007.